Thursday, July 2, 2009
it been a mth plus since i blog it.. partially is i'm lazy to blog, e other thing is i dun know wat to blog sometimes.
last mth went for 5 wks Song of Solomon bible study, i felt tat after every bible study is a test for me.
it realli test my faith towards God n my love towards God.
i realli dun know wat is my mind thinking abt.
a lot of things seems nt right for me.
i've been finding job also. although i've found a job but it realli tiring though it is at a 6 star hotel.
there are things i wanted to give up but it seems so tough. now i realised giving up some things is so difficult. it realli need a lot of willingness n courage to do it.
i ask myself wat do i realli wan but i realli dun know. i had been crying everyday when i was abt to slp. i realli dun know wat am i thinking abt.
all my mind was thinking am i realli a fool?
wat do he think of me? wat do i mean to him?
everytime i wanna stop myself thinking of him, but i jus cant.
all i jus wan a normal love, is tat so difficult?
hve i nt do anything for him?
watever i do, he jus dun appreciate it.
how i wish i didnt started it. it so difficult to end.
n all i wan is now is jus work n church then study, nth else.
wil i be able to stay strong for my own will?
i shall see how it goes ba.. =(
orientalic - 8:36 PM - |
